MOMENTS TO REMEMBER [ I WAS ]

That is not a good face I show you above but that's me in march 2011. get with it. I posed a Dracula face in the picture to make it look a bit cuter but it turned out became creepy. but that is not the main point I want to tell you about. That picture is just to show you who I am before. a crazy girl who always acted like a cute but cool girl. cute and cool? not such a right combination. it was like Avril lavigne mixed with hillary duff. weird.

You know, after I had a baby I realize that my life won't 100% back. Nope. not even 50%. maybe I still have 20% of my life when I used to be, but largely it's gone. My characters were also changed. From crazy to psycho I mean a bit calmer. from impatient girl to must-be-patient most of times, from little bad ass to a nice home-stay woman. I'm a women now not a girl anymore {yes! reality check}.

This morning when my baby was sleeping, I back to see all, I mean ALL of my laptop images gallery. it's nearly a thousands and my memory are in the end of his capacity. I must erased the UN-important pictures which I couldn't find one because all pictures for me are so important like my life was living there... well, once upon a time. I still have and keep those bad and blurry pictures which I took with my nokia and blackberry bold. I just can't throw them. It's a history of my life.

When I back to see those old photos, I smiled to to them, and {oke, time surely goes fast} but I couldn't lie how different I am now. And also, I realized that my long long relationship with hubby, from 2004 and got married in 2011, was quite beautiful. hehe... I mostly mad to him lately and feel that he didn't help me caring our little Noah.

So here's a bit of moments that I missed it now.

Hubby and I were not so good at posed in front of camera. we always ended up being awkward and the pictures always look like we just known each others. I think this picture is the best pic so far. HEY! we didn't look at the camera.
 I wrote 'iya' on the sand. So vintage huh?
  We didn't look at the camera.
  She used to be my second soul mate.  I don't know where she is right now, we lost communication for about.. well, six months i guess? because my old phone number was gone, and I didn't save her number on my android, and she didn't know my new number, and I couldn't find her path, twitter, instagram, and facebook, I guess she deleted or changed her name to avoiding wacko guys may be, so we lost communications.
  with my childhood friend. She already have a baby, a girl, and I can't wait to see her in the next couple months. So loooong.

[ 2010 ]
We didn't look at the camera. gah!
 
[ 2011 ] self portrait on the car while waiting bf. I always took any pictures I could took while waiting on the car like shot the street, car window, dashboard?, and of course the only model I could find and have, Myself. I think it's more worth-ed than twitting random things like "i'm bored" or "I see a weirdo walked in front of my car", basically I always lose words to tweet about. oh well, maybe i'm not so into twitter world.

Can I have my body back to this size? I'm kinda miss it. I lied. I miss it A LOT! and i want it back! please please please God...

Ugh and OOH... my fashion taste was like this before.